During a cuci mata session along the Bazaar Ramadhan here in my hometown a few days ago, I overheard a Mat-Rempit-looking guy talking to his friend, "Tengah hari tadi dah makan, malam ni nak makan apa plak eh?" I certainly hope he was joking!
And today, as I was buying roast chicken for my brother, we could hear from not too far a seller yelling, "Burung, burung! Mari beli burung bang!" Well that shop apparently sold golden fried burung puyuh and chicken in their stall. The girl occupying the roast chicken stall cheekily asked softly, "Burung apa?" and smiled that twisted smile.
Alhamdulillah, it is an honour to yet again greet the holy month of Ramadhan... the month of all blessings. I'd like to wish all my virtual and not-so virtual friends a happy Ramadhan. May this year's Ramadhan splurge us with all its blessings and joy one can get.
"Fasting is an armour with which one protects oneself; so let not him (who fasts) utter immodest (or foul) speech, nor let him act in an ignorant manner; and if a man quarrels with him or abuses him, he should say twice, I am fasting. And by Him in Whose hand is my soul, the odour of the mouth of one fasting is sweeter in the estimation of Allah than the odour of musk--he gives up his food and his drink and his (sexual) desire for My sake; fasting is for Me and I will grant its reward; and a virtue brings reward ten times like it." (B. 30 : 2.)
And today, as I was buying roast chicken for my brother, we could hear from not too far a seller yelling, "Burung, burung! Mari beli burung bang!" Well that shop apparently sold golden fried burung puyuh and chicken in their stall. The girl occupying the roast chicken stall cheekily asked softly, "Burung apa?" and smiled that twisted smile.
Alhamdulillah, it is an honour to yet again greet the holy month of Ramadhan... the month of all blessings. I'd like to wish all my virtual and not-so virtual friends a happy Ramadhan. May this year's Ramadhan splurge us with all its blessings and joy one can get.
"Fasting is an armour with which one protects oneself; so let not him (who fasts) utter immodest (or foul) speech, nor let him act in an ignorant manner; and if a man quarrels with him or abuses him, he should say twice, I am fasting. And by Him in Whose hand is my soul, the odour of the mouth of one fasting is sweeter in the estimation of Allah than the odour of musk--he gives up his food and his drink and his (sexual) desire for My sake; fasting is for Me and I will grant its reward; and a virtue brings reward ten times like it." (B. 30 : 2.)
Sometimes, you wake up wishing you had more to give... but when you have family and friends who appreciate and love you during both high and low times... it makes it all seem okay.I miss my dad. It's weird knowing he won't be around for two months and spending Raya without him for the first time in my 22 years of living will definitely need adjusting. Throughout my life, I've always remembered my dad being there whenever I needed him. He was there taking pictures when I ran, jumped and marched on Sports Day, cheered me on during my Karate tournaments, video-ed my gymnastic shows, had my laptop taken care of when it died on me, encouraged and never condemned nor gave up on me when I failed... he was there, always.
He's the person I fear most of disappointing, it just breaks my heart. I know the amount of sacrifice he has had to put up with to afford what my brothers and I have today... and I will forever be grateful eventhough I know I would never be able to repay him should I live a thousand years. It's hard to keep up with that. I pray everyday that one day I will be able to bestow the same if not better upon my kids as he has to me and siblings.
Three weeks ago, we sent him off to the airport for a 2 month course in the prestigious Harvard Business School. It was kinda funny seeing him grinning like silly with a backpack on top his bush jacket. My dad is back to school... only difference now is he's buncit, heheh. Funny how my more than half a century dad still thirsts for knowledge while his sweet little daughter(in case you didn't get that, I meant myself) is already sick of school-- no, maybe it's just engineering. Wish I was at least half a genius that he is. The best part was I got to pat his back and say, "Study hard yea!" I miss you abah! Can you buy me a Coach bag now, please!?
---xxx---
On a totally different note, remember when I asked for your views concerning whether a guy and girl can be just platonic friends? I was actually writing an article for The Star. Initially I thought I was just contributing but when a cheque came in my mail, I was in for a surprise! I guess if all else fails, I have something to fall back on. Thanks to Kak Na, karlbum and apples for your views, it helped me a lot =) No thanks to the rest of you! Hmpphh!
He didn't tell me how to live; he lived, and let me watch him do it. --Clarence Budington Kelland
I feel like I've turned into a boring old fart (yea coming from a drama queen). No seriously. Sure, I still love crazy, fun, wild activities but I like a lot of things organized now. There are some things I'm alright with doing in just the spur of a moment but at the same time, I like things scheduled so that I can arrange and manage my time well. I realized I've turned into a boring old fart and a sensitive one at that too when watching Oprah can actually put me into tears. When TV dramas can make my eyes all welled up and the fact that I can cry while reciting doa after prayers. Mun says I've gone soft. Maybe I have. Or maybe I have always been? Nahhhh! (Hellooo, I'm not even into quarter-life crisis yet! I need help!) It's hard juggling 3 homes(well campus is kinda home) and with family all over the place. Time for family, for friends and then of course the workload, it's a neverending exhaustion. Nevertheless, I'm still grateful for everything. I have shelter(s), a great family and wonderful friends.
Also, there's the worrying too much about my future thing. Of what I'll be, of what I'll become, if my kids turn out right, if I have enough money to fund their education... if I ever get married even. Living off my dad so far has been pretty good. Hahah! I have savings I've made since I was a kid that can buy me a cheap brand new car in cash(trust me, all those little sen lying around, when accumulated can really get you somewhere, provided you never korek your tabung everlah!) and I still think it's not enough. It never will be enough, will it? Then I guess I'll have to save more.
What I imagine and have in mind feels so perfect that sometimes, it seems too far-fetched to realize. I worry about losing people I love before getting to do any of the above. I really do. I want it to be perfect. Everything. But that's tomorrow. Today, I'm counting my blessings. And tomorrow and the day after.... and everyday of my life I hope I'll always stop and take a moment to smell the roses.
And you... I'll still love you in the morning. Forever and ever baby =)
The boring old fart... signing off...
I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read and all the friends I want to see. --John Burroughs
I was tagged by my dear high school mate Iris, so here goes nothing...
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Naz
2. Nazihah
3. Sweetie or cutie-pie is very much welcomed too.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Oh tough one... my flexible limbs, I can still do cartwheels and ALMOST do a split!
2. My lips... yea being perasan again.
3. My skin.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My cheeks, too chubby.
2. My nose, too flat- my dad used to say I have hidung ikan pari(stingray). I have no idea from whom I inherrited it from.
3. My fingers, I wish they were longer like my mother's.
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Malay
2. Chinese- a few generations ago
3. Proud to be Malaysian yaww!
THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T STAND:
1. Dishonesty. I simply cannot bloody stand it.
2. People who think they're too good for their own race/country. Like "Oohh! I don't watch local movies or listen to local music." Puhhleeezzz!
3. I can't stand driving a dirty car. I get agitated.
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Animals. Yes, every single one of 'em... uh-huh even cats.
2. Losing people I love.
3. Disappointing people closest to me; friends & family.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SHOWS:
1. FRIENDS
2. The O.C
3. SATC ... frankly there's too many to name.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE JAPANESE ANIMES:
1. Not
2. a big
3. fan.
THREE OF YOUR CURRENT FAVORITE SONGS:
1. Stars Are Blind- Paris Hilton. Hahahah!
2. Far Away- Nickelback
3. Unfaithful- Rihanna
THREE MOVIES YOU CAN WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN:
1. Notting Hill
2. The Notebook
3. My Bestfriend's Wedding
THREE MOVIES YOU WOULD LIKE TO WATCH:
1. Any movies
2. I have time
3. for.
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. I need to brush my teeth and bathe the moment I wake up.
2. My daily dose of coffee.
3. FOOOODDD!
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Black T-shirt
2. Pink with white polka-dots shorts. Hahah! Heyyyy polka dots are totally IN!
3. Scrunchie
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. L.O.V.E
2. Security
3. Good communications with a huge dash of humour, hooyeahhhh!
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE GENDER THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Dimples. *hihi*
2. Nice set of teeth. (yea I'm weird that way)
3. His ermm... eyes. Yea eyes!
THREE BAD HABITS:
1. I procrastinate.
2. Annoying my brothers.
3. Buying books without reading them-- at least not yet.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. I like reading but haven't exactly gotten down to do much of late.
2. I love anything to do with crafts; anything artsy I luurrvee!
3. Watching movies.
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. I wanna go home!!!!
2. I wanna shop!
3. Take a break! A vacation where roller-coasters are available or any activity that can send my adrenaline rushing might do the trick.
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING OR CURRENTLY PURSUING:
1. Still
2. thinking
3. about it...
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Turkey
2. US of A
3. New Zealand
THREE KIDS' NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. Erk...
2. Haven't exactly thought
3. of it yet...
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Go white-water rafting!
2. A trip around the world.
3. Live a meaningful life.
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL (or guy):
1. Shopping is a sport.
2. I cook and occasionally have my ceruk dapur moments.
3. I have bad 'tudung' days.
INITIALS OF THREE CRUSHES:
1. K.L
2. K.E.K
3. M.R
THREE PEOPLE YOU TAG TO DO THE SURVEY:
1. LaiLy!
2. Bedz!
3. Fatin!
